Dream = Current Life

Date: 12/30/2017

I was very reserved. Walking through this place full of people. Standoffish even. I had on these shades and a scarf over my head. People could probably recognize me, but would get the vibe that I’m not feeling inviting. I don’t want to be here, but this place is all I know. I see my aunt Tanisha that I haven’t seen in years. She left her kids with my uncle and started a life somewhere new. Seeing her now she did not look healthy. She looked like she had a drug addiction to be honest. When we met up she said “Let’s run away together.” Loneliness and desperation in her voice. I told her give me 30 mins because the event was no re-entry. I’m not sure if I wanted to stay because I felt attached to events like this or I knew this would be my last time with them so I wanted to have more time before I let go. She said she couldn’t wait for me and we both were struggling to hold back tears. We went our separate ways and I went back into the event. Everyone drunk and having a good time with each other, but I was alone. A part of me felt content with it. A part of me was lonely and crying for attention without being obvious about it. As the event went on a fight broke out and I left alone. Watching the people that I once went to college with together enjoy each other. I felt a sadness and a feeling of relief as I was leaving. Maybe I was driving to new beginnings? Maybe I was running away...