Spiritual blow

Date: 4/28/2018

I was at a Christian conference and during mass hug to my sister who will not talk to me or my other sister because she’s holding grudges and anyway I was happy to hug her and I think she even had tears in her eyes so she seemed genuinely sorry about your actions but I punch her in the back as I pulled her into it and embrace This hurt her and she told me I needed to go to special reconditioning spiritual therapy in order for her to know that I changed So I went because I wanted to where of her family and my nephews again who I have not seen in a long time in real life So I went but it was bizarre with the strange African priest who barely spoke English and how do you do strange experiments with many plants on a countertop or conveyor belt like a thing you like my mother was there she was annoyingly talkative and encouraging about this but I do not understand what I had to do touch the plants and be conformed? Anyway I keep doing everything wrong the priest was not happy I think we had food or breakfast then we my mom me and the priest? We listen to music on my iPad and my mother of course went on and on about the memories of the 60s growing up your music tastes in Vietnam Switched to my brother-in-law‘s family and his apartment it was a lot of chaos his mother potbelly pig was running around and I had to take care of her but I did not know really how I remember running very quickly to the house on all fours like a dog then up the staircase wanting to show my wild self has a therian my brother-in-law but he didn’t seem to notice to my disappointmentHe does not know about this part of me in real life Feelings: Anger Hope Frustration Confusion Disappointment