Mom and sister drown to death

Date: 1/6/2019

I had a dream a few months ago that recently popped back up in my head since I’ve been researching my dreams more and discovering their meaning but I’m not sure about this one. I was a little girl again sitting in the back of my mothers car, her in the drivers seat and my older sister in the passengers seat. We were going over a highway and when I looked outside of my window the raging waters underneath us met my eyes. I believe there were other cars on the highway as well but that’s not too important. My sister, who’s usually talkative and a somewhat up beat person was just sitting in the seat deathly silent. She was slumped over with her seat belt around her and as quiet as I’ve ever seen her. My mother was very quiet too but in my real life she does have a fear of driving on highways so in retrospect she was probably just very concentrated on the road. I don’t know why but she abruptly turned and our car when straight over the bridge and plunged down into the water. You know how cars take a while to sink while they are being filled with water? Well that’s what happened. Still, my mother and sister were quiet and accepting of this “plan” since they were so calm about it. I think I already knew this was a suicide destined to occur. I don’t know why, I just did. So I ducked my head down under the water that was already reaching my knees as that’s how quickly the water filled our car. I tried to hurry up and drown myself and get this whole thing over with but I just couldn’t do it. I just didn’t want to die. I remember calling my mothers name and telling her this and she turned around slowly and with the saddest eyes that were glazed over with tears. I can’t remember what she said verbatim but it was something along the lines of it being ok that I didn’t want to die and somehow I found myself at the top of the highway again, staring at the broken guardrails that failed us. Before I appeared at the top of the highway and as I began to leave the car I saw my mothers arms wrap around my big sister in a final embrace as the water filled their lungs and captured their lives. Later on in my dream I was then with my older brother and we were living with our grandparents and looking down on our mom and sisters grave. This is a nightmare I had that still brings tears to my eyes whenever I retell the story but I just have to know what it means. If it matters I always loved the ocean and just water in general, and according to my zodiac I’m an Aquarius and we’re know as the “water bearers” If anyone can provide me with any meaning behind this nightmare of mine I’d be grateful and highly appreciative. Feel free to pm me as well