Nov 20

Date: 11/20/2017

Before sleeping I felt like I was going to die for some odd reason something felt different, when I actually went to sleep I remember that we were on vacation of some sort and we were sleeping in this room with only two big mattresses on the floor and no furniture whatsoever and my mom started getting involved in a three some right in front of me, then on the left side of me there was someone else having intercourse so I decided to leave the room, but mind you I was utterly in shock, disgusted, and mad I felt like I saw another side of my mom, Next thing you know I'm in a swim suit exploring this pretty cool rain forest typa thing of where we were at, **in reality before falling asleep I had fresh cut scars on my thighs, but in my dream they were clean and faded away like they used to be, took me a while but I eventually throughout my dream realized I was dreaming because of the scars and once i knew I was dreaming I was full on wide awake and aware I tried to make things appear but didn't work, I was afraid that I'd get too excited that I'd wake up, but I didn't, shortly after this darkness or someone wanted to keep me in my dream I remember hitting these people and running but it was all in slow motion, and I remembered about what my friend told me** in real life** that in a dream it seems like you're running so slow... I was wide awake in my dream and completely aware enough to remember that conversation my friend and I had about lucid dreaming and the slow motion running because it was happening to me at that very moment, but these people that wanted to keep me in my dream they put me in a dark room which looked sort of like a trailer or an RV and I was standing next to a small twin sized bed and I couldn't wake up I kept trying to i was scared I felt like I was going to die, I was yelling my name saying "wake up, wake up" moving my head around and I even yelled so loud at a certain point i felt like I finally got to my actual body with that scream and my body actually twitched, but I falsely "woke up" and now I was laying in that small bed with my hands by my side and laying on my back and I wasn't sure if it was my actual room and if I was actually awake this time, i was thinking really hard of what my room actually looked like but I couldn't remember anything, so because of curiosity I try to get up out of the bed, but I couldn't I was being held back, I wasn't awake and realized that was not my bedroom and I was still dreaming,I tried to get up out of this bed, but I couldn't move, I couldn't speak it was a dark black type of fog or "spirit" you could say, but this black fog was in the shape of skeleton hands and they were on my face, definitely wasn't a person because I couldn't actually feel anything it felt like a black force on me and at that moment I remembered about sleep paralysis and I wasn't too sure what that even was but i just remember reading up on it one time and a type of demon was involved so at the point I was so scared I had major anxiety I felt like I was having a panic attack and I couldn't wake. But I eventually woke up...