Cocaine

Date: 5/25/2016

Previously, I started with a reoccurring dream that I've now had twice. Every time I wake up it's completely forgotten, but every time I dream it I consciously realize I'm in a reoccurring dream. Then, I was in another dream. I was with a girl named Aspen at my school. We were alone and just hanging out. I forget where we were, but I don't remember people, so I assume we were alone. She pulled out a tray of cocaine (probably because I'm obsessed with the song "Downtown Love" right now), and offered me some. I did a bit, but since I don't really know what cocaine is, it sorta felt like flour. I just kinda did a little quick swipe across the nose, because I didn't really want to get so crazy that it was obvious. Thinking now... Maybe I was at school actually... I think it was in the hallway during class? Anyway, I never felt high, and my dream just carried out normally with Aspen, until my Dad came and was extremely angry that I was out of the house without telling him. He said I was out without permission for about 4 hours, so judging that he was angry, maybe I was not in school... Or stayed after school? In the car he was explaining to me on and on how mad he was, and driving me somewhere that I assumed was home, but I wrong. We pulled up into a doctor's clinic, and he set me up then and there with a male doctor to give me a drug test. I was never sure if Dad was just sending me in here because I stayed out long, or if it was because my high was obvious, but even though it all seemed in a short time span, apparently the drug wore off majorly. My doctor was writing a form, and on it was all the information on my drug testing. The large label at the top spelled out "DRUG LEADER", which I somehow remembered being called when I was high with Aspen. Actually... I think after I got high I was with Aspen and a bunch of her friends. Mostly males. Anyway, after the doc got me tested he left and said he'd be right back. I knew that the form was going straight to my Dad, but they weren't going to explain it, so I scratched out the word "DRUG" in the title, and replaced it with some other word. I think I also scratched out the doctors name. Later as the doctor came back in I realized there may have been a place on the form with my name, and the incident that occurred. I also remember the pen being very small. The doctors explained to me that there was about 20g of cocaine in my right leg, and my left leg was clean. Doc brought Dad in, gave him the form, and explained my results. We left to the car and he was furious. He was nagging and nagging to me for quite some time, and I don't remember what he said, but I remember he spoke for about 5 minutes on how stupid I was, then I think the rest of the car ride was silent. We pulled up to a wedding party with a big house and large columns standing tall at the entrance. Dad grabbed the collar of my coat and walked me like a dog to the party. Once we were inside he acted like nothing happened and bend in with the crowd. I socialized a bit, then needed to get out for some fresh air. When I was out there, Owen, from Dexter, came and I ran to him telling him I was lonely and there was no one I could talk to. He was chill, and about to ask me something, but his dad pulled up (the trinity killer from Dexter) in his shiny baby blue car. They greeted each other. Owen asked my something I forgot, but then he left wth his Dad. I felt to alone and hopeless, then my school bus pulled up, and when I came on Aspen was there. I sat down next to her. I said, "My Dad caught me on cocaine." She said," You did?" I said yea, then she said that sucks and starting explaining some story that happened after I left, but I don't remember any of it. Then, I woke up.