Worrisome dreams

Date: 7/27/2020

I stabbed some old guy in the chest repetitively because he was known for messing everything up. This may have been in a matrix. But stabbing him felt very visceral and I could feel the bones I'd hit and at first i was stabbing him low so he was like dying slowly and shocked and then I stabbed him right in the heart because I wanted him to be out quick and then he was. There was blood everywhere. He had been sitting in a back pew in a crowded church maybe and I only killed him because I remembered him from some other event that he ruined by peeing on everything. There were 2 other people watching as I killed him, nobody seemed to care. At a party for work there are 2 different houses. I eat already at one house but when I go to the second house I get upset when there are not even seats for me, the only free ones are teeny tiny children seats. For some reason if I can't sit I can't eat and I feel so left out. People from Maine were here but they all looked the same age. Like Nathan, Amber, Kathryn, etc. I tried to prepare a blue plate with sugar sprinkled on it for some honeydew melon to be plated but when I go out there is no honeydew, only watermelon and cantaloupe already out and sliced. So i go wash the plate. There is a cage with pets in it. They have a snake. I am suppose to clean the pillow case in the cage. The mom of the house tells me to and I don't want to let her down. I do what she asked and get a new one and replace it. The snake in the cage curls up into a see through, square shaped box suspended in the top corner of the cage and falls asleep. I am later floating on a lake on a mattress but somehow the water goes away and when I look between the wall and the bed it looks like mice have chewed through the walls and may be living in my mattress. But when I look in the mattress there is only a tunnel made of lint. This makes me uneasy so I try to fix it but really I want to move houses but I don't remember anything else.