Gross dream

Date: 9/20/2019

Just had the worst dream ever and literally woke myself up. Don’t know how it started but maybe I watch too much thriller horror movies. I just remember slightly that I was in a room full of some people I knew (like class mates etc) but it wasn’t really a room it was like outside as well in a big dirt hole but the dirt was brownies?? - probably coz I had brownies just before I went to bed. It’s really hard to explain but anyways I was basically hanging out with some girls from class then it changed into like a lesson where some people were on top of the hole and were pretending it’s a boat? We were all watching this old tv inside the dirt hole boat - then we were watching this movie this guy made (dont know who he was but I had a slight crush on him) anyways this is where it suddenly changes. The boat morphs into a room so I was slowly backing out of the room to go for a toliet break, the dream changes and I’m just in the toliet but instead now I’m in like a singlet and a skirt and my cleavage is showing and my hairs down, out of no where someone comes up from behind me and wraps there arms around me (this sounds normal but the person that was doing this to me in the dream was a family member that I don’t wanna say because it literally makes me want to vomit) it starts off like that and I remember struggling to get out of his grip but he has a tight hold on me and won’t let go. He’s feeling my tits and all over my body, he was on top of me so I could hardly breath and kissing my face. I was screaming out for my sister in my dream but my throat was so dry and knotted and you couldn’t hear anything, I was like whisper screaming. I felt like I was in those horror/thriller films where no one can hear you and the guy is raping the girl- like lovely bones vibes. Anyways he doesn’t have sex with me thank god because that’s something I never wanna imagine 🤢 would make me feel weird asf if I see them today. So after that happens he lets me go all smug and shit and says don’t tell anyone which in my head I was like fuck you cunt and run straight into my sisters room but weirdly while he was doing all that gross shit to me I was like writing a help me note, it was like my sisters name and then “I need you right now” which I actually slipped under her door 🤦🏽‍♀️ but back to the story so I was sobbing but her boyfriend was also there so I didn’t wanna cry that much. Also I remember him seeing me sobbing and going wait wait I wanna see what she says lol like in a way that he wants to be let in on the gossip 🤦🏽‍♀️ Anyways in the distance I could see him lurking over and I was out of breath trying to tell her was happened but she was like being distracted by him because he kept making jokes to her and then they were having a full on conversation etc so I felt so helpless then when he was leaving he said ‘don’t tell anyone’ again and then I blurted it out to her but I was crying so hard that my words were all muddled up and I was breathing in a lot and this frustrates me so much coz I was wanna tell her he raped me- my sister looked so confused then he comes in again I tell her properly this time wha happened that he touched and kissed me but he was like I just kissed her on the forehead then he does it to my sister in like a non sexual way and she believes him and I just start crying and crying saying that’s not true and anyways dream cuts off there because I literally woke myself up from yelling out something can’t remember what I said but I did wake myself up from sleep talking , think it was like “he’s lying!” Or “why don’t you believe me” or “that’s not true” and I woke up just crying and sobbing uncontrollably coz it felt so real, I think my mum heard me crying as well lol. Had the biggest lump in my throat as well so sore. It’s 5:46am rn and ima go back to sleep. Can’t believe I wrote all that maybe I should’ve coz that’s not dream I want to remember 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢 worst dream ever