Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 12/6/2017
By xoe
this dream made it impossible to get out of bed. a big party at my old babysitters house. my ex husband is there with his friends. he is staying with me for a few days. i didn’t know that until they were settled in. tons of food and people. and the party is for me. i didn’t want this or know about it, but there are things i am supposed to do. sing and perform and open gifts. nobody told me. i freak out. quiet yelling/pleading. i want bill to leave. i don’t want to do this. thibgs fall apart. a window falls out of skinny’s old dark red room. bill and friends work on fixing it. they overhear me and get hurt feelings. my flowers get caught in beaded curtains. opening so many gifts. i want to leave. i don’t want this. finally people leaving. but my giant dress has all sorts of presents inside it. crying, embarrassed. i know i should be grateful, but i am horrified. can’t find my phone. only tons of gifts. sitting on the floor, i sing “sometimes” from depeche mode. near the end, a little girl sulking in the chair next to me starts singing too.