Jonghyun

Date: 4/11/2018

I met Jonghyun today - he was living with us and we were good friends but he didn’t know that he was dead. It was like we were talking to his soul in human form. It come to one point where I told someone that we couldn’t keep this secret away from him no more and that we should finally tell him about why the upper floor was inaccessible and about his own death. We sat him down together and I hugged him on the side and began telling him his story. I told him ‘So we want to tell you a story...its a sad yet beautiful story but we want you to know about it first. Were here for you anytime that you need us.’ We tried our best to comfort him first before telling him. We then walked over to the lift and showed him the list of floors. The building went up to 5 floors but floors 3 and 4 were crossed out. We told him that the reason for this was because a few months ago Jonghyun had committed suicide (real) and so those floors were closed off (no idea why were living in the same building though). Whilst he was trying to make sense of everything we then took him over to a room which he though was a kids room but it was rather a room filled with all of his old souvenirs and gifts from fans. We showed him each one of them hoping that maybe he could remember something. It was cute watching him talk about his old toys and how he remembered this one rabbit figure. So now he knew the story about his death. I wanted to cry so I tried holding myself back. I laid him down again and the three of us just hugged each other trying to comfort one another. Gone but never forgotten.