"And for a moment, I was happy"

Date: 11/25/2016

There I was, in this post-apocalyptic place. First I needed help, so I grabbed this girl who was Indian gently by the hand, and in some type of amusement park attraction, reach the end. Anyway, this is not the big deal, what WAS a big deal was this: As a greysexual trans woman, I was, in some dystopian/utopian society, and what happened was that in this weird flashback, people were in a room. I was paired with this pretty person. So, in some weird order of events, there was sex, and everyone in the room was having sex, but I truly did not want to so I deeply hesitated. So, apparently at this dystopian world, everyone was supposed to have a baby. I really hope I did not, it would have been so gross if I did. I tried every ounce of my strength to resist my attraction that may have never been reciprocated. So there was an electronic board, where there were telling us this, in a long hallway. Eventually, I realized this was a futuristic school, Despite all this over thinking, I was interrupted by a couple of girls my age who threw down a giant year book, everything I realized had a Gothic theme, and the giant yearbook was as tall as a casket. So anyway, the most important part of the story is this. One short girl opened up a year book, and started flipping through the tall pages of the giant yearbook, showing my girlfriends their pictures, to which they were amazed. There were full body year book pictures, with major successful editing and extremely high quality. Long story short, there were one of the most beautiful things I have seen. So, here I am, nervous about my yearbook picture, and they flip to my picture.... I was anxious about taking a yearbook picture, because of my gender, but here it was: There I was, with beautiful medium/long hair, smiling. I looked more oriental, but maybe that was the remarkable eyeliner and makeup. I was smiling, and I looked soo extremely pretty.I managed to wear my gothic fashion clothing, at which I was so extremely happy. I looked remarkable! I looked lower, and they even had the short shorts I wore at hot topic to school, which I worked extremely hard to shave for that one day. I felt extremely nervous & anxious wearing it, but here it was! I was mesmerized, it even had a Gothic atmosphere. They had dark lighting, but light coming from the gargoyle filled window! There was a Gothic little stand, and I was sitting in one of the most beautiful chairs. All I could do, is that thank the editor. So, the school bell rang, and I had to go to gym, but I stood there, in complete amazement, for 5 sleep minutes, and woke up. Possible Inspiration: Me being soo lonely, and trapped with all male, anti-LGBT family this Thanksgiving; me seeing a break of sunshine when I was in the mall thanksgiving night, and a friend of mine walked up to me and said "I love you" it made my day; my anxiety over the yearbook picture due to my gender identity in senior year of high school; hot topic goth outfits; my acquaintances; my loneliness this holiday; abusive family; my editing photography hobby; my job filing papers; and my gorgeous friends, I love them.