He's there again

Date: 12/23/2016

I've been feeling hopeless lately. I didn't want to think of anything, even him. I've kept myself occupied. I've been training myself to accept that he's never going to be mine. But last night. I dreamnt of him. whenever I find myself wary of him, he comes back in my dreams. It started out like one of my usual dreams, I was at school (it's the same school but some of it has changed), hanging out with my friends/doing school related stuff and my usual sport, soccer-baseball. But then, he appears and everything else becomes blurry. His face is all I see. He holds my hand, kisses me, hugs me. whispers sweet words and all. And that's all I ever remember when I wake up. Me in his arms. Both of us happy. It saddens me to know, that in realty, that isn't true. I don't know why, but whenever I decide to give up on this silly little crush of five years, he comes into my dreams where he's always absent for weeks.