Ex husband’s disease

Date: 12/5/2018

My ex husband desires to show me how he’s living now (it’s been 10 years since I’ve seen him or talked to him). He’s naked on the bed, somehow I’m seated next to him. He shows me his belly roll...we laugh about that. But then he smears this white substance on his face that he reached down and retrieved from his penis. Ick. He said he’s had a STD from another woman (he’s remarried). I told him to go to the doc. He said he wouldn’t, he’d rather live with it. My interpretation: dreams about others are usually dreams about aspects of ourselves, unless it’s a precognitive dreams that shows us future events we need to be forewarned about. So my ex represents that part of me that knows I should go to the doc for something minor, yet chronic. His STD, for me, has to do with stunted sexual expression (I’m between boyfriends right now) or the need to seek out healing from being sexually abused as a child. I could use that built up sexual energy in my art and writing...and I will, for they are one and the same. I can also further heal that little child in me that’s been abused. We did laugh together about his now fat belly...fat can signify abundance and prosperity. Laughing about it shows I need to stop putting so much pressure on myself, which is exactly what I did all day yesterday. My dream is telling me to lighten up more, and use my creative expression more! The doc portion could be literal, or more likely I need to patch up and emotional wound regarding being sexually abused as a child. Bingo!!!!!