Abandoned and Unloved

Date: 9/22/2018

A lot of things happened in this dream. It started with me wandering the streets at night trying to cross the roads to get to this house. This is automatically stressful because I don’t feel safe alone at night and I have to watch for cars. The curse of being a girl. So my anxiety is already pretty up there. Once I get into this house, it’s like a mansion and full of people. The first thing that happens is my girlfriend breaks up with me. Saying I creep her out and she’s never had feelings for me. My heart breaks and I start crying. I don’t understand what I’ve done. Her sister is supposed to be my best friend and she also comes up and tells me that she can’t help me. I’m on my own and she thinks we shouldn’t be friends anymore. Another heartbreak. I run off sobbing, trying to find someone to comfort me. I ask their dad what is happening. He says that he shouldn’t be talking with me and that I should leave. I’m so sad I’m furious now. Next, I’m at this giant auditorium full of students. I guess it was a celebration. I’m leaving the auditorium crying and I see an old close friend of mine, someone I hold dear. He was sitting on a bench with his other friends and makes eye contact with me. He gets up and starts to walk away. What the fuck? I see another friend see me and congratulate someone else first, I get so angry I shove him and tell him to fuck off. Everyone I care about hates me. I woke up covered in sweat.