My boyfriend failed the vibe check

Date: 11/24/2019

I was at dinner with my mom grandma and boyfriend. I sat next o my boyfriend. We talked for a while. Then my mom and grandma went to the other table (I think to clean it) talking to each other. Meanwhile I sat on my boyfriend’s lap and teased him on purposely. I stroked him with my hand until he was fully standing (he was also uncircumcised). Then my mom called me and so got up and left him like that. After that I went to my room room waiting for him. He has a sign saying that he’d come in a while but he was doing something. He texted me saying something like he was getting ready before he’s fully in me. My dream was going back and forth between this scenario and me being Pocahontas and he was the white guy. I wanted to go outside and explore my backyard which I’ve probably never done and he likes to stay inside. He came into my room a while later. The door is closed and I see my step dad holding the sign he wrote on saying he’d be back. And my boyfriend has a round firm belly which kinda turned me off. My step dad disappeared and my boyfriend opened my legs. I decided to let him go in my butt than my womanhood because I felt like I wasn’t ready for that yet, not with him at least. This energy didn’t seem so genuine. I felt him go inside me. The next day we’d meet at the mall inside a store. I couldn’t find him. I looked everywhere and I was getting mad. Then my friend called my boyfriends name. And I realized he was in front of my face this whole time. He looked like another person but one think I knew for sure is that he was an average looking Korean guy. I forgot what he looked like and I felt like a terrible girlfriend. We hung out for a while. There was a police man raising his voice angrily at another police man. I went to check what it was about and apparently police#1 helped police#2 financially and police#2 slept with police#1 wife. A bit later he raised his voice higher police#2 trying to tell him to lower his voice as he is getting my embarrassed of all the attention. The students hang under the wood where the police men where standing on. Then I decide to go into the bathroom with my boyfriend for round 2 of sex. I put clean paper napkins on the skin and open my legs. He unbuckles his belt and his pants fell and I felt him a little into my entrance, he wasn’t fully inside me. I wanted to ask him if he has protection last night because I couldn’t remember. I got kinda bad vibes from him that he didn’t use protection and that he wasn’t clean from diseases. I was paranoid.