The unexpected day

Date: 10/13/2023

It started out strange where I was at home in my apartment and my mom came for an unexpected visit with some friends in the area for the day. I was happy to see her but not planning to see her so my plans changed and I didn’t feel prepared with anything in the house to eat. But she was happy to be there for a day. I remember we hugged for a few good seconds it felt very real. Then we had to drive to this town called Pennsylvania Which I don’t think exists in New York It was this nonprofit like retreat center or something and we had to go pray the rosary together, but there was a female Christian rock singer name, Marsha singing about pro life and there were young teen girls, screaming excitedly in the building across the way from our building. I remember riding the bus or van there and had to put my First suit tail, my mountain lion, tail and ears off and left them in my seat. I felt self-conscious with strangers. I didn’t know who I knew were very conservative. Going to this rosary thing that I did not sign up for but once we got there I was OK and really excited about the rock singer but we weren’t there for her. we started praying the rosary when my alarm went off Some things I thought of when I woke up and feelings from the dream were what I value which is family, my mom, spirituality, praying with other people and music the rock band and art my fur suit, tail and ears. In I waking life I know I want more things that are valuable in my life to happen. I think with others more than by myself, which is happening a lot, and I want to connect more with my community and a meaningful way, but it doesn’t seem to be working out in the city here I might have to move or give something up or try something super new , I don’t know what to do yet. I’m still looking for help.