Ex

Date: 5/13/2021

I have had continuous dreams about two of my exs one in particular. I haven't wrote these down because I felt wrong to have dreamt them. I felt like in a way it is a betrayal of my husband in waking life. But since it keeps popping up I'm writing about it. In a most recent on I am in a classroom setting and I keep trying to get his attention and little by little it works. We exchange a few body languages and words as we acknowledge eachother but then I still feel like he needs to hear all of what I need to tell him. We leave the classroom and i try to find him. I search everywhere and nothing. My urgency doesn't go away. Then on my next night, I was able to sit and talk to him I was able to say some thing but I still had a feeling like he was closed of and wasn't receptive to all that I wanted to say. It was devastating to feel that wall. I couldnt get through to him but I was still very happy and grateful to have had that moment to reconnect and tell him a little something that I needed to share with him. I dont know what I needed to tell him or what are conversation was about but I'm sure I'll have more details to add. I know there will be more dreams like this. It's been happening for too long and I need to get to the bottom of this so I can squash it and explore other realms.