Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 7/2/2019
By Fitful
I was shown again and again the death card in tarot. It came to me again and again and again, a pretty design simple drawing of a skull and some flowers on a white card. It was a symbol of new beginning, hope. ~ I was taken to a mall with a bunch of stuff. This was collectables, tons of collectables in their original boxes looking prestine. Nothing was the same line, however, some I just didn't know the name of or where they came from. I was dragged here by someone who really wanted something, wanted me to go in an do something. I think they wanted me to go and buy all the rest of each collectable's line, have full sets of each collection. They make me take pictures of each and try and find the name of each time and I was to go into that mall and get what they wanted no matter the con. I felt very uncertain and small, I felt guilty and even worse when I contemplated fixing it. ~ In the mall I was working on the ground floor. My boss was very micro managing. He was always watching me, always bossing me, every moment was accounted for by him. I had a pile of stuff in the middle of the mall floor, the collectables I think, and he was the other as well. Maybe. Finally I was so exhausted I left to the elevator, it was my break and I just wanted to be out from under the scrutiny. I go in the elevator and pushed the second floor. I wanted the third, maybe I pushed the third, but I got the second and it was pretty high up there for a second floor. Even better it was closed off, cleaned and sealed as it was being left for a certain time maybe the wrong season for it to be open. It was empty and deserted and I was grateful. I grabbed a tiny chocolate cake from a display case and went to the restroom. I had to pee so bad. The restroom was so clean the toilet had a seal over its bowl. I punched my nails through the seal aso I could pee, I had to pee very badly. The toilet was full of ice cubes, very fancy, and peeing into them felt very refreshing. I took a big bite of the cake. He found me of course. I barely had enough time to wipe before they all barged in. Me being there triggered some alarm and he showed up with what seemed like a swat team of security. Then he berated me for eating his new invention, some chicken he bioengineered/discovered which had all the meat from all the animals in the world in it. It was set to cure world hunger as it was so dense it filled people up quickly with one bite. I had 'eaten it now' and 'soiled his discovery'. He was very angry. I felt very guilty/worthless despite the fact I hadn't even eaten a chicken at all, and wouldn't want to, and he could clearly see I had a cake in my hands.