Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 5/1/2022
By Fitful
I'm in a classroom where teachers work with autistic children on how to dial up their awareness of the world and then dial it back down for their comfort level. I learned how to do it as well, it actually worked. The dimming of awareness, of being able to mentally hold oneself in realworld interaction, could be adjusted. So when the dial was turned up one could hear and interact normally with the world. Then when it was turned down they couldn't hear the world or people or see much outside their bubble of close awareness. It's a class for my brother, to help him and apparently I'd been selected to take him to his class yesterday and today. But lowkey I was being seen as well, though I'm an adult. My teacher from yesterday - a nice older black lady - was doing good work with me. She was new and a little nervous, unsure of her teaching methods, if they worked. I reassured her she had helped in our yesterday's lesson, while she pinned things - tacks - to a cork board. She had her hands busy and full and asked me to go in her purse, pull out something from a middle compartment. Some white paper or pouch she never could get out by herself. I didn't see what was in it. ~ So there are adventurers. They discover a secret treasure by looking at the right time of year between twin building, through a certain glass object. The problem is the twin buildings are old, one is sunken into the sea and mud, leaned over, not upright. Somehow they manage to get the viewfinder between them and spy the sun, then move up to see a star perfectly parallel. There is this big chase scene with canoes over a raging river, often in the air above the river too. The queen travels in a barge that flows on the air river right above the water river. She gives chase well, very aggressively. They survive being hit by deadly animals - I mean a lot of deadly animals with sharp spines and teeth and big enough to attack canoes - and booby traps. They survive the evil queen. These these adventurers really try and get away. Some do, I assume. Also there is a man betrayed by his lover who may be a robot but they were in the queens side ages ago and betrayed her together but in the end didn't endup together, not escaped sucessfully. Now he finds out his lover didn't disappear or fall victim to the Queen but had turned around, decided not to betray the queen after all, and got frozen. A type of stone freeze, for ages of time. She didn't unfreeze him but let him suffer because they had betrayed her. He finds out when he storms the Queen's barge and finds his old lover newly unfrozen and begging for forgiveness, his position back. He's hurt and betrayed all over again. I'm assuming she's a long lived queen. Maybe a god/queen. I got Egyptian/Aztec vibes. ~ They were wrapping tiles and bricks in Christmas wrapping, the plastic kind. You know the faux foil. Anyway they chose to wrap a whole bathroom - a public restroom, in the stuff. Each tile, brick, by hand. Then it turns out they had put lights underneath. They turned them on. It was a light show for Christmas. They couldn't afford to wrap one part of the wall, and couldn't turn on the lights of half the room but it still was pretty. Apparently NYC was down on it's luck in the recent years, money wise. Last year they'd done an event that also didn't fully display. ~ My mother is dealing with a lot. A child living with her who didn't pay rent or contribute. It's my brother, and he still looks like a child - 8 years old, the way I remember him - but he's grown now. And she's very tired and put upon and weakened for having to do all the work and keep handing him money she doesn't have. I tell her I'd pay for something of his, some program or something he wants to be involved in - if I could but I can't. I literally don't have the money. I commiserate, and say no one should mooch off others. No one should be living off her without giving back. I'm very heartfelt about it. It feels like it has more weight than just the one incident. It feels like something she did, or I did, once upon a time and it's just medicine to deal with it now.