grief, guilty, goodbye

Date: 2/14/2020

My brother was younger in this dream, around 5 or so. But I was the same, a teenager. For some reason my mom decided she couldn’t have us around anymore, so she dropped us off at this shelter/school for children. It was obvious that this place was meant for young kids. There was a playground and the classrooms were all colorful. At first all I could feel was sadness–how could my mom abandon us? It’s important to note that she would NEVER do something like this in real life. Then I became overwhelmed with guilt. I felt horrible for taking up the workers’ time and resources when they were clearly only equipped to handle kids. I felt like I should’ve just left so that I wasn’t a burden. But then the headmistress took me aside and consoled me. She told me that I wasn’t a burden. She said I needed to stay for my brother.