I killed my goat- June 13, 2019

Date: 6/13/2019

In this dream I was having a mental break down in the barn and for some reason I thought that mom told me that I would have to kill my goat. I was crying like crazy and my hand was shaking because I really loved her so much but I pointed a gun at her head slowly and then pulled the trigger. I didn't aim very well because she didn't die immediately but instead suffered and was dieing slowly. I shot another shot to her head and one towards her chest to put her out of her misery. I cried in the barn for a long time and then I ran to my mom and told her what happened. My mom apparently didn't tell me to kill my goat and she couldn't believe I did that and for the rest of the dream I just sat there wishing I could change what I did and wishing I could go back and stop myself. When I woke up I felt like I was going to cry and this dream made me actually really sad for a while.