Letting go

Date: 9/21/2020

*high school setting* Ashley and I were besties, even though it was high school it still felt like we were "cute". Our teacher had given us english work to do in a previous class - I remember noting what I was writing, but i cant actually remember anything I wrote now lol. It was yellow and green ink though. The next lesson was maths and Ashley and I had scooched our tables closer so we could work together, we were the only ones allowed to do so. The teacher had left the classroom for something, so naturally everyone started talking and stuff. Also, everyone was going back to doing their english homework that they had forgotten about, except Ashley and I. At some Ashley started arguing with another boy in our class who was a bit of a bully, so I threw some fruit at him and then he started coming for me lol. I think he actually tried to slap me but he was stopped by a SUPER angry Ashley, I had to beg him not to break the boy's arm. He kissed the inside of my palm and asked if I'm okay. Eventually the teacher came back and everyone kind of got in trouble for not doing their maths - she also declared me the winner of the fight with the bully. Random, I thought. But still happy about it lol. After class we were standing by the railing overlooking the school grounds, where we watched a fight happen. One of the fighters, boy, knew capoeira, which was so weird and especially confusing for their opponent, girl. It seemed like boy got over the fight bc he hadn't been hit once and kind of "slithered" away to rejoin his capoeira group of friends - they did some kind of formation. The setting changed to university, and we were indoors, but still standing at a railing overlooking the bottom foyer. Ashley saw a girl wearing a Manchester sweater. His hair had also changed to a blondish orange (like it was bleached) but the roots were dark. We were talking about who she is and what she's doing here. I thought she was faking being a student bc the book she was "reading" was a children's book, but Ashley thought we should investigate bc of something on the back of her sweater. I rolled my eyes and thought 'this boy and sports things'. We made our way downstairs and when we got to the bottom floor we were suddenly on heelies and the corridor was like a hospital more like. We weaved our way through people and patients looking for this girl. Eventually we passed her, but did not make contact lol we just took note. I needed to go to the bathroom and there was supposed to be one next to where she's standing. It's gone though. Ashley grabs my hand and we skate to the end of the corridor. We sit next to each other in a poorly lit area on the floor, against a wall. He has his arm wrapped around my waist and my head is on his shoulder. He confesses something to me, but I cant remember what it is :( I get up bc i need to use the toilet forreal forreal. Ashley says "you'll find me". After I come out of the bathroom I'm dressed like Ilona Verley (full monochrome pastel blue poodle outfit) and my heelies match. I'm skating through the corridor back to class trying to look out for Ashley but I cant see him. I start softly crying, I don't care who can see me, no one really cares. There's something weird about the patients here, they're all teachers and they all seem very happy. I pass one particular person whose "spirit" kind of calls out to mine. An old woman who looks like queen Elizabeth?? We exchanged a few words - I said something about it being brave for her to be here. She responded that she's proud to be here. I asked her who would she rather "come through" with - this has a very spiritual meaning behind it, and it seems we both knew that; it was basically me asking her about her very existence as a person, was I asking her about a twin flame? She smiled and said that she would come through alone. I said that's a very interesting answer, but I like it. Smiling, I turn around and start skating back towards the staircase to go back to class. I'm alone though. END