We nearly kissed

Date: 4/5/2016

Was in the house I live now with my landlord, whom I fell for irl and also in the dream. But the house felt a little different even being the same. It was summer and we were alone, suddenly something happens in the sky like some fireworks and he invites me to go out and watch the show. This "out" though is weirdly the end of my street in Rome, the city I come from but don't live in, which I think leaves me slightly confused but just for a second. He sits on the pavement (a decision I internally question for a moment knowing the state of that part of street since there's a café with its tables out during the day) with his back on the wall, points at the sky saying something about it, and gestures me and asks me to come sit next to him. I oblige. I can physically feel the heat that radiates from the wall and also his big arm wrapped around me. So much contact never happened before, I am thrilled, but even in the dream my inner voice scoffs at me because I read too much into things. Anyway I'm so thrilled that I think ok this is finally it. I turn my head to look at him in the face, he turns as well, we sort of lean into each other, I'm so sure we're going to kiss my stomach is full of butterflies and does a backflip (again, I feel all of that for real) and I have my eyes closed but at the last second I feel him pull away and sort of hug me and kiss me on the head and say something stupid and treating me like a child. I am momentarily left speechless. I wanted to ask what's going on but at that moment the doorbell rings a couple of times and I wake up in the middle of the night, almost sure the doorbell rang for real.