Wedding reception

Date: 4/19/2020

I left the place where the wedding was being held to take a train trip into town with this guy I know named justin. He took a long time to get to the platform so we were almost late to the train. Then he took an extremely long time getting back to the platform in town to ride back to the wedding in order for his girlfriend to be able to meet up with us, we almost missed the train so I started running to catch it. The girlfriend drove a car though, so he got in the car with her to catch up to the train, they said awful shit to me and pretty much said "fuck u I never gave a fuck about u anyways and im not going to let u in the car so just run" I had to run to get on the train and barely made it on. I was carrying a lot of shit and everyone was staring at me, I dropped some of the stuff and everyone started talking bad about me, a lady put the stuff I dropped back on top of my pile of stuff and I thanked her profusely. I had a tough time getting off the train and was crying really hard because every had been so awful and said so many bad things and I thought justin was my friend but him and his girlfriend were in front of me when I was walking back to the wedding house and she kept saying stuff like no one actually cares about me and just shit about how I look and how people see me and that no one loves me and I dont matter and all this stuff. Some of my friends were walking back the same way and were either agreeing with justin and catching up to him, or staying back to walk with me. My clothes and shit were torn up and overall I was a mess and I had been crying really hard because everyone had just been so awful, when I got to the wedding people were whispering about me and I was so upset, I saw Andrew coming out of the main reception area, I was like "can we talk right now? I really need to talk". It felt so bad. And then when he wasnt really listening it felt worse. Like no one was understanding how bad it felt. But seeing him at the en d of the hallway and hearing him say something stupid, it almost felt like nothing had happened at all because dreams erase the past so quickly. But it was funny what he said, funny in a way that I was crying and it was so dumb it just made me feel better. But then the dream changed i was like building this giant haunted house thing and it was a different kind of dream.