screw nightmare

Date: 6/1/2016

I was going to be in a foreign country I've been to before (in my dreams- not a real country.) I was on the streets there and wondering why in the past (dreams) I had been fearful. I felt confident. I was in a dark room and I heard sounds -what seemed like evil words and static. i became paralyzed and overwhelmed with intense fear. I felt utterly unsafe. I followed the sounds and found an old machine next to my mother and I and struggled to turn it off. I found lots of old office equipment from the 80s there. my mother said she brought it for me suggested it might be useful for me to have it. at certain points in the dream I became partially lucid and tried to wake myself up unsure of if my real self or dream self was in danger. or I was trying to wake myself from dreams within a dream. I yelled "no! no! no!" and tried to break free from a dream paralysis but was unable to. the fear escalated in the dark room as realized I was in serious danger. my mothers family was all there in the bed and quietly told me to smile in front of the people who came into the room or they would kill us. I sensed this was correct and tried to lay still. I listened to the men speak and I heard them say in Spanish "I don't want anymore problems with these people". other men came out and pulled people out of the bed (not all family members but just other women) and I knew we were lifelong prisoners and they would rape us repeatedly. I saw images of torture like an old film that flashed in my head. people being sewn together. people with elephant trunks sewn to their bodies. people being put on display. a man came in and started to repair the equipment but it was on the top of my head and I felt immense pain like a screw was being screwed into my brain. I said "no puedo hablar bien por ejemplo voy a decir el torneo ha torneado". this doesn't mean anything but I was thinking of tornillos. I kept trying to move away from him but couldn't and he ignored me. I "woke up" in the dream and was alone in the bed where I had previously been with my family and I was even more fearful than before. I felt an overwhelming sense of being in danger. i woke up in real life with my heart racing and pain in my head. I was so afraid I fell out of bed. I am feeling pains all over my body still - maybe from unusually high levels of anxiety