Dance Performances Ruined By Tears

Date: 7/16/2023

I dreamt that my mother put me in dance. I was doing pretty well. I went to the performance, but then, in the middle of the performance, I broke down crying. I had no idea why, I just started sobbing uncontrollably. That ruined the performance for everyone. I remember my mother being so furious with me for crying. But I just couldn’t help it. There was another performance in a few weeks time, but it happened again. I broke down crying with no clue why. My mom came and angrily pulled me away from the performers. She was so mad at me. Telling me how dare I cry and ruin such a good performance. Then, I had a sudden epiphany. In real life, I was actually bullied and made fun of in the 10th grade by this obnoxious male classmate. It was not a fun year with him. Unfortunately, we had world history together, so I had to deal with his rude bullying every day. I love to dance the hula, and one day, I was showing one of my friends how I do it, and Allen, that was the classmate’s name, mad fun of me. I remember crying so much, and being hesitant to dance the hula again, unless I was alone. I didn’t want to show anyone my hula, and for years I didn’t, until I found love and support. In fact, my boyfriend loves it when I dance the hula, so I feel better about doing it for him at least. But maybe the reason I was crying so much in the dream was because of the real life event in 10th grade, when I was made fun of for dancing the hula. So, I went to see the dance teacher. Haylie went to see her, as well as another girl named Maria. I don’t recall the teacher’s name, but she did call me Mallory, which was my birth name. I hate the name Mallory. I’ve hated it for many years. My mom corrected her and said Angela, but that wasn’t correct either. Yes, I changed my name to Angela in 2018, but I’m actually getting ready to change my name to Stacey because there are too many painful and traumatic events tied to the name Angela, and I don’t want to be called Angela anymore because it hurts too much, plus I like the name Stacey better. So I spoke up and corrected both of them. I said something to the effect of, actually, it’s Stacey. I prefer to be called Stacey, so it’s Stacey, Haylie, and Maria. There was dead silence but I could tell my mom was pissed. She was seething.I just knew it. Then I woke up.

AI generated interpretation In this dream, there are several themes and emotions that can be explored. The dream starts with your mother putting you in dance, which suggests that this dream may be related to your relationship with your mother and her influence on your life choices. You mention doing well in dance, indicating a sense of achievement and competence in this area. However, in the middle of the performance, you break down crying without understanding why. This sudden display of intense emotion suggests unresolved emotional issues or suppressed feelings. The uncontrollable sobbing ruins the performance for everyone, symbolizing a fear of letting others down or sabotaging your own success. Your mother's fury towards you for crying may represent a fear of disappointing her or seeking her approval. It could also reflect a perceived lack of emotional support or understanding from her in real life. The dream then reveals a connection to the bullying you experienced in the 10th grade. The incident where you were made fun of for dancing the hula becomes a significant trigger that seems to re-emerge in your dream performances, causing the uncontrollable tears. The dream indicates that this past trauma continues to have an impact on your self-expression, highlighting the lingering emotional pain associated with it. The encounter with the dance teacher and the confusion about your name may symbolize a struggle with identity and a desire for self-definition. Your preference for the name Stacey instead of Angela suggests a desire to distance yourself from the painful memories and associations tied to the name Angela. This desire for a name change indicates a need for personal growth, self-acceptance, and the creation of a new identity that aligns with your own values and experiences. The dream ends with a sense of tension and anger from your mother, possibly reflecting a fear of her disapproval or resistance to the changes you want to make in your life. Overall, this dream seems to be exploring themes of emotional vulnerability, past trauma, the desire for self-expression and self-definition, as well as the fear of disappointing others or facing their disapproval. It may be a reflection of your subconscious processing of these issues and a call to further explore and heal from the emotional pain associated with your past experiences.