Guys that were after me

Date: 5/30/2020

I was in the lsamp classroom. J1 and I started cuddling during the teachers explanation. the classroom was dark and I had my legs wrapped around him. he was bouncing me gently on his crotch area. it felt really good but i was also surprised. this went on for a while and he seemed to be getting a lot of pleasure from it. He whispers in my ear something along the lines of, how long have u felt this way about me? I didn’t reply. Truth is i just have a flirtatious personality but I would never want to be with him or do things like this with him. It felt good in the moment but when he pressed my back against the wall and kept grinding on me I was feeling nervous. He then said, why aren’t u saying anything? I said I’m sorry I don’t know if I feel this way about you and I gently pushed him off of me and left. Later on J2 (different guy) was in english class with me. (I don’t even have an english class anymore.) and he was asking me about lsamp and what I learned. I told him uhhh Idk it was kinda hard to pay attention today. He asked that on purpose. He said i know it’s distracting for me too seeing you guys cuddle in the back... I thought you wanted me. (Keep in mind that the whole class is just sitting in their desks pretending not to eavesdrop.) I took his hand and said I do want you and looked at him earnestly. I haven’t stopped thinking about you lately. he seemed unsure of what to believe. but I was telling the truth. We had great chemistry and i didn’t want J1 to mess that up. I spoke a little to loud when i said I wanted him because then the girls to the right of us were all staring and whispering to eachother. probably because they knew J2 is a fuckboy too and most likely doesn’t take me seriously either. J2 went back to his seat at the front of the row. everyone around us seemed to be whispering until the teacher came along.