Am I finally awake

Date: 1/23/2019

I was facing my mom back when I felt myself start to get sleep paralysis. I froze my body got heavy and it felt like a magnet on the bed. There was light because of the stove light I left on but it turned off looking at my mom back I was trying to move but couldn’t I kept trying to scream for her to wake me up but it felt like my mouth was superglue and couldn’t open my mouth. Then I forced my leg to move it was hard trying to lift it but once I did I woke up and I saw the light again. I was on my phone for awhile because I had anxiety but I calmed down but I knew if I fell asleep it could happen again but I was tired. So my eyes kept closing and I felt myself keep getting paralyzed then I felt my body sink into the bed and it got dark. Then I “woke up” but I kept staring at the fridge next to me I couldn’t move I didn’t feel like talking I was just calm so I fell asleep. Then I “woke up” up again but this time I can move but I thought I was really awake and I saw my mom awake sitting up on the bed and I was happy I felt calm and she kept talking to me about my future and kept telling me I’m special and this and that. Then I went up to the mirror and looked at myself and something felt off. I had different clothes on. Then I looked back at my mom and noticed she had a laptop then I finally realized oh shit this is a dream. Then it got dark and the whole room got black again my mom disappeared. Then I went back to “waking up “again. I got up from my bed and saw my mom sleeping I was like okay I’m finally awake. So I layed back down and saw a note on the counter and I couldn’t get my eyes off it till I remembered there was never a note here then I finally woke up. It was 5am at that point. So I just went back to sleep and nothing happened weird from there but I woke up at 7:10am finally.