Dreaming is an escape... Because I wake up in a true nightmare

Date: 3/30/2017

By pansexualpirate

Okay so my life has gotten to the point where sleeping isn't sleeping it's an escape route from reality. In real life I have anxiety and I was diagnosed with depression and I don't like telling people that know me that because I'm afraid they will all leave and I only have like 3 friends and I'm crushing hard core on one of them but they don't know because they're umm dating my cousin who is my best friend also i don't know whether I like my cousin's girlfriend more or my best best friend bunny (that's my nickname for her) so that situation causes severe panic attacks but they're (my cousin's girlfriend) helping me when I have these attacks so now I get home and the only thing that keeps me from like having an attack. So I don't know what to do anymore