Im confused

Date: 10/18/2019

So in real life this girl i really like but aren’t official with spent the night i have a hard time falling asleep with her because of the positions we lay in but when i did fall asleep i had vivid dreams of us making out and me even trying to finger her, but her saying that she isn’t into the whole penetration thing. I also think i dreamt i was on top of her sucking her next and giving her an instant hicky. And these dreams got mixed up when i was awake and who knows if those weren’t dreams at all. I asked brenna even in a dream or in real life if we have done anything and shes like what do you mean ik we have kissed. But that was early on in the dreams. I think that they are because i don’t remember them very clearly and if it was real i think i would regardless i enjoyed them. I also remember during the possible dream states i was questioning if this was a dream and making my mind up that it was but it might not have been who freakin knows. The one thing i absolutely know was a dream was my mom walking in asking who was the top and no one answering was deffo a dream