party in my house, rude boyfriend, & praying

Date: 5/26/2020

so after quarantine i invited my boyfriend over because i missed him! he came over to my house, which was now a mansion, but didnt really seem that interested in me. we went to my backyard for him to skate instead of going to my room. he then asked if he could invite his friends over, and i said sure because i didnt want to make him sad. his friends come over and we go inside. slowly, more and more people are being invited without my permission, and soon my entire house is crowded and theres a huge party. a bit later, a girl comes up to me and tells me that theyre gonna try to move some of the party to the basement for all the popular kids because they had more stuff. it was my house, but i had no power anymore and didnt know how to take control. i ran upstairs where everything was super dark and quiet. i walked into my room, there were a few girls praying. they told me they were sorry for being in my room, they just were upset how out of hand the party felt. even though im not religious, i kneeled down next to them and prayed. my best friend came into the room and she had the “body of christ” crackers that are in church, and we all ate them. then, this girl grace from my school walked up to the door. she started talking about the basement party, but after seeing who we were, she turned around. i left the room and screamed at her while she walked downstairs. i said she was the most selfish, entitled, spoiled little brat i had ever met. then i said i was going to shut down her party. after the girls left, i laid down on my bed and closed the door. i started crying. all i wanted was to see my boyfriend, but he didnt want to see me. now my house was filled with people. my boyfriend opened the door, laughing. i looked over and i saw him leading another girl in to the room. but when they saw someone was already there, they turned around. then i woke up.