Boyfriend & drugs

Date: 4/10/2019

So I haven’t used my dream journal in forever, but I feel like I should because I’ve been having really bad nightmares and sleep paralysis, and because of it it’s giving me anxiety. I thought maybe by writing some of my dreams down I could calm them down a bit? I’m not really sure I’m just trying to do anything. So last night was the first night I was able to sleep in 3 days because of my sleeping anxiety. I had a dream that my boyfriend was actually doing a lot of drugs behind my back in our relationship. Any time he hung out with his friends he was doing drugs with them, even though he promised me that he would never. I felt really hurt and put into an emotional confusion. I didn’t know if I should leave him or stay with him. I wanted to be the reason he was happy enough not to do drugs. I don’t remember much after that, but I woke up shortly after. It was really horrible. Now that I’m awake, I keep feeling anxious like all of that was true. I don’t know what to do anymore.