Ex-gf Suddenly has a New Boyfriend

Date: 10/20/2018

So irl earlier today my ex texted me out of the blue to tell me the "wonderful" news of how she finally has a new boyfriend. She had the nerve to say she knows I don't care but wanted to tell me anyway cos of how I know what a bad lonely place she's been in for so many years. I told her congrats and really did mean her well but I couldn't help but feel kinda razzled by it, not that I have feelings for her in the slightest, but it triggered something in me as I tend to feel rather envious of people in relationships being that I not only haven't been in one in ages, but have social anxiety and low confidence when it comes to women thereby making me feel rather hopeless when it comes to dating. She hurt me so bad in our relationship (we both hurt each other really) so I really didn't need to hear how she's moved on to someone else and felt like it was something she threw in my face to hurt me once again. So it took me awhile to get to sleep as it was bothering me so much just how unfair life can be and I didn't want to feel this way but did. By the time I got to sleep I dreamt she called me on the phone saying how her new boyfriend was a guy she didn't even meet yet but that her sister set her up with one of her friends and she was excited about it. She's the type who would very much exaggerate things in her favor in this type of situation too. She said goodbye to me and I wished her luck on her date. An hour later she calls back talking about how it was a bust and how awkward and creepy the guy was. She changed her story from how it was her sister who set the whole thing up to how it was one of her little brother's friends from work who was interested in her. We laughed about the whole thing and I felt relieved it didn't work out but also didn't want her to start calling me regularly again because we just can't be friends. She is too emotionally unstable for me to feel safe around. I woke up feeling alot better then when I first fell asleep and it's clear my brain needed to create a dream like this to help calm me down. I wish she hadn't contacted me. I've been doing so well for myself lately and hearing her tell me this news so suddenly just threw me so off balance. She would lie near constantly in our relationship sometimes making up stories just to manipulate and hurt me, so this might be another complete lie altogether just to keep with that sick tradition, but I also know that I seriously have to work on my insecurities surrounding being alone for the most part and that envy I feel of people in relationships. It always tends to make me feel like it's something I might never have again when I desperately would like to have one that's healthy and fulfilling like I've always wanted.