Everything is Really Just a Game on it's Own

Date: 8/30/2019

Driving nothing more than moving a lego car along a toy road, trucking no more than like ATS but somehow even easier to see it’s not so serious when the POV is somehow from above. Every job isn’t much more than a game, you lay down a bunch of plastic roads or place buildings people use. The weird part is it’s like fear of a bad place is not much more than a Rareware game with crude humor that most people realize was made to say “evil is an act so much that they might as well be rhyming for no reason and steal bananas from apes”. I know I’ve told my subconscious not to lie to me in my dreams, if it doesn’t know that’s okay and it can tell me. It should tell me. I’m hoping I did that successfully enough to get the truth, it’s hard to not believe what I want so badly that I have no choice but to rely on it to have a reason to live. Otherwise my reason is “live each day like it’s your last”. For some, that works. For me, it feels like I’d only be stressed that I have nothing to look forward to.