That girl

Date: 3/12/2020

Had an important and interesting dream right at the end of my sleep. Amazing that it happened in less than an hour of sleeping. It was about Alanna, but it took place in a sort of parallel reality and many years ago. I was maybe 20s something, and we all hadn’t seen Alanna in awhile. Like a few years. Seemed like what could’ve happened had she quit the theatre and lost touch. She was invited out to a meetup and I remember it felt so good to see her, we weren’t together, and I hadn’t seen her in years. The interesting thing is my perspective in this dream was totally back to my late 20s, when I had no one and was pining after girls, one of which being Alanna. Well in this reality, we spent the night together in our group of friends and then parted. In the days following, I was thinking about her and trying to figure out how to ask her out on a date, and holy shit, I felt exactly like I did back in those days, like that forgotten version of myself returned in its purest form. I went online to search for her, found her Facebook page, looked at pictures of her just wishing I could be with her but not knowing how to make it happen. Then I found a live stream she had done, just her talking about pictures of herself and critiquing them, super shallow hahah. She was also discussing the boys she was dating and how they just weren’t right. But in that version of myself, I was just seeing this girl I loved and missed who was maybe having a hard time finding the right person and I just wanted to be that person. I felt such love for her, but in the same way I did before we started dating, from afar and from the perspective of how do I tell her/she is gonna laugh at me. I mean, that feeling of my former self was sooo strong, it’s like I was him again. Then I woke up, and slowly coming back to this reality, realized that I did it, I got her, that amazing person I was struggling to figure how to get, I did it, I got her and married her and am spending my life with her. Incredible how time alters mindsets and you forget the way your old thought patterns. What a powerful dream- don’t forget that as life carries on you did it, you got the amazing girl, she is your wife and your life mate - and man that should make you feel amazing everyday cause it would for that past/dream/other Stacy. Onward!