Built up anger. Filling a hole.

Date: 11/6/2023

Morgan and I were walking to where mom was to meet for breakfast. Something was going on and we had to walk. It seemed like a long walk. We passed a house with a tiny play area for kids in the front. There was a giant hole around the kids things (swing, jungle gym etc). It looked dangerous but we laughed it off. We followed the dirt road to the other side & Morgan decided to fill the hole with snow that was surrounding it. So the kids would be safe. A child came out of the front door and caught her. Then the parents of a bunch of mixed kids said they have it like that for a reason but they were nice. When we got to the breakfast restaurant mom was sitting at a table by herself and told us we should sit somewhere else because I was going to be mad. Apparently Jason was coming and he had just stolen from her again. Of course I get livid and accidentally slam the chair on her toe. I instantly feel terrible and get on the floor to see if I broke it. She’s crying but she knows I didn’t mean to. The guilt & anger is overwhelming … then I wake up.