Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 4/8/2023
By Jadders
I'm trying to close the car door, but they keep automatically opening. I closed the door and locked it, but it still manages to reopen. Four people in black come along for me and two for Luke. We are pulled out of the car and told us they are taking us away. I asked if I could say goodbye first, as long as I stayed calm, they were okay. Luke didn't care, so he just went with them. Turns out he just went along with it, so it didn't look as if I was going through it on my own. I went inside, and Mum and Paige were already packing for me. I asked how long this had been in the pipe works for and mum said years. I said, "What about work? I'm not going to have a job once I get back if I'm gone for a while." She said I don't need to worry about that right now. I said im fine, and I dont need to go, mum, then bring up the self harming."" I told her I hadn't done that since I was 15! 11 years ago! She took my phone off me, told me this was only for 5 years. The men took me away while I was sobbing my eyes out. I was placed in this room. A dark, cold waiting room with lots of chairs and windows that were mirrors that wouldn't show me. I was there for ages on my own. I paced, tried to nap, had a quick masterbate, then carried on sitting there. I did notice a camera at the back of the room, but nothing came of that. Two girls walked past and said, "You do know you can leave this room right. It's just the waiting room. " I didn't want to move as I just wanted to go back to my room at home. I was also glad no one saw me masturbating in this public room. Another girl walks in and introduces herself. Lauren, she seems absolutely lovely. She's only just been admitted today as well. We take it upon ourselves to explore. Running up the stairs and sliding back down the bannisters. We end up walking and finding a shop. Turns out it's the shop I actually work in. I didn't understand how that could have been in the same place. Unless work was never real. I see Adam, he told me that he's in the same boat as me and he works so it gives him something to do with his days. I walk off and say I'm going to take my break with Lauren." We sat talking for a bit until some very bizarre girl came and introduced herself. Her name is Jess. Jess was saying how this place was a holiday camp for her. There isn't anything wrong with her. She just pretends for the pills, then sells them. She pulled out her phone, but it wasn't a phone and started showing me videos on Facebook and tiktok. I kept telling her to hide her phone, and I didn't want to get into trouble. She told me to look around the room. Everyone else had their phone, too. It was just me and Lauren who didn't. I asked Jess if I could use her phone to message my mum to get her to bring mine in for me. A fight broke out instead before i got the chance. I walked to the back corner and spoke to Lauren. "There is a woman on the top of the bay just standing there. No, wait, she's got her kid up there, too. " Then, all of a sudden, everyone else started climbing on top of the shelves. I ran over to the original woman and tried talking to her to get both her and her baby down. As the woman started to come down, she kicked me in the face, which started a room fight. Punches are thrown everywhere. All these wardens, nurses, and people came charging in the room. There are people everywhere, it's such a mess. Next thing I know, Adam is tapping me on the shoulder and speaking to me with a really soft voice. "Come on, mate, let's get you out of here. Turn left, that's it! Keep going. Well done, mate, you're nearly there. " All the while, we were followed by a couple of men in black, the same ones from before. I asked Adam what was going on, and he told me everything was fine and told me to take a lie down on this bed he had just guided me too. They restrained me to the bed as they thought I was the one who started it all. He briefly explains that he's actually the person who has been looking after me for years. He was never my boss. This information sent me into a spiral of shock, so I stopped talking for hours. I'm left there with all these cuts and bruises on my face. This other weird jess girl sees me from the hallway and pops in. She tells me that I can't always get myself retrained. If they find me to be too troublesome, they'll just kill me off. I can't tell if she was just trying to get me paranoid or not. Either way, I knew I didn't want this again as it was super uncomfortable for my back. Plus, they wouldn't even let me out for a wee. Lauren sat there the whole time after jess left. I'm just talking to me to pass the time. She couldn't take the restraints off me as they needed some sort of magnet to undo it on each of the joins
AI generated interpretation The dream you had appears to be quite complex and may be reflecting certain unconscious concerns and conflicts that you may be experiencing in your waking life. One possible interpretation of the dream could be that it is related to feelings around loss of control, abandonment, and betrayal. The dream opens with a struggle to close the car door and to maintain control - this might be indicative of struggles in your waking life to keep things under control. The presence of four black-clad individuals who take you and Luke away might represent some sort of force exerting control over you or threatening your freedom. The fact that Luke goes with them to support you might suggest a need for interpersonal support in the face of external threats. The conversation with your mother about self-harm and the idea that you will be gone for years might indicate feelings of being trapped, abandoned or neglected, and the confrontation with the woman on the shelves might be indicative of intense emotions such as anger and frustration. The presence of Adam and Jess may represent opposing forces within you, perhaps hope versus cynicism, or seeking connection versus withdrawal. The fight in the room may represent emotional turmoil and possibly a need for catharsis. The fact that you were restrained and left with cuts and bruises on your face might indicate some sort of trauma or struggle that you are experiencing in your life. Overall, the dream seems to be reflecting a struggle to maintain control, a sense of being threatened or hemmed in, and possibly feelings of betrayal and abandonment. It may be beneficial to explore these themes in your waking life and try to address any underlying issues that may be causing you stress and anxiety.