High school panic attack

Date: 8/15/2021

I was back in high school, but not much time had passed. I was still a teenager and all of the same people I went to school with were still there as well. I was so excited about a chance to do things better and right! The school started with me walking up to the school with my best friend now Shannon. The sky was pretty much all white and the school looked like the Superstore closest to my house and was at the same location. I told her that for awhile I was thinking of not being friends with her anymore (which despite the stress isn’t really true irl) I told her for the first time how much it hurts me that she has started as an adult doing the hard drugs that she knew completely ruined my life as a teenager and made me use years of my life. She took it really personally and was hurt and said her starting to do drugs had nothing to do with me. I went into the cafeteria by myself and sat with my old friends Colten and Ryan. I was so excited to see them again, and found myself having a crush on Colten just as I used to. I was wearing a band shirt crop top and I noticed them both trying to read it “Return to Saturn” I said. “I guess we can’t go to earth because it’s exploded and missing on your shirt.” Ryan said and I looked down at the shirt and the image was just an image of the Milky Way, but earth was indeed exploding. I said “it’s going to be so interesting actually being at school every day, for the first time in my life!” And I saw that Anna and Jane both heard me and were nodding and smiling approvingly. When the bell rang for class I was walking to my class, and it looked like I was walking through a mall. I instantly realized that I had said “return to Saturn” instead of “rings of Saturn” the bands actual name and was embarrassed and hoped they didn’t notice lol. I looked at my schedule and realized that I was going the complete wrong direction, I had gym class and was going to be late. I was so excited though as unlike when I was a teenager I am in shape now and love working out! I was excited for someone to see how fit I am now and prove that to myself as well. 😝 Suddenly alarms started going off and there were police everywhere in the school trying to usher students quickly to their classes. My phone rang and it was Colten, he told me a girl we went to school with had gone crazy and was attacking people and had a weapon. I got ushered by a young cop into a random classroom, and it ended up being the class that Shannon (who now looked more like my best friend in high school Maya) but she didn’t want me to sit with her. The teacher put on a movie to distract everyone but it was an extremely sad movie and was making me sob. Suddenly my sob turned into a panic attack in the middle of the class room, it was loud and messy and embarrassing and I couldn’t stop. I was thinking about losing my best friend, the movie, and feeling terrible for the girl who went crazy- because I knew she had, had such a rough life just like me. It kept getting worse and worse and I was so scared but nobody tried to comfort or help me.