Astral work...

Date: 5/31/2021

There was a small area on the block, about 4 feet by 4 feet, a square. And it was mine. And I had a store at first and it became really amazing until I had to sell it or it was stolen and then tore down. And the owner was just dumb and I was right there working the store secretly anyway. Meanwhile there was a liminal space, like a mini astral dream but everyone knew it was real, and it was a lesbian club. You went there, packed in like sardines. I felt very self conscious there. I hated it but I kept going. People I knew were there, each progressing in their experience with their sexual expression. I dated once maybe. .. It was probably with the same person who got my store taken away. And tore down. There was, for instance one chick who had sex with three or four swan men. And there was a swan person in jail, maybe pregnant, in the next square over which was basically just a wall tower that was crumbling. And my investment was both mine and frustratingly not mine, as was my romantic relations. I couldn't get close to people. The moment I dropped my guard - enjoyed myself and had fun and was myself in the connection - they dipped out.