At the Gig

Date: 9/7/2025

The first part of this dream I am in what feels like a school, but definitely is giving more university/college than grade school. There are classrooms and cafeteria type rooms and I'm sitting at a table in one of them. It is incredibly packed with people. As I'm sitting, a young woman asks to sit with me and she starts flirting with me, I kind of flirt back before I get the sense that she is being pretty serious and I tell her that I am straight but I'm willing to try but also if she's not into that, that's cool. I'm really aloof and detached, I feel confident. But then her friend comes by and something shifts, it's like I'm being made fun of in some way, the lesbian and her friend are assessing me and I lose my footing. Suddenly the whole room kind of erupts into chaos, not for anything specific but there are people all around me, just like we are shuffling through the room like we are on a packed bus and no one can move well. All the people are just trying to get to the next place but I feel like I'm trying to get away from these two women because they saw something in me that is bad or something. It was like the room matched my emotion, a closing in feeling. The next part was funny. It might have still been in the school and it was Christmas now, different day, different vibes. I had a small gift for a friend. In the dream, the friend wasn't specific but then I thought of the people doing the decorations and I knew one of the guys and liked the other people on the team so I decided I would give the gift to them. In my waking life I feel akin to this because I moved so much, no one is a close friend but whoever is the closest can be acted upon most strategically to gain friendship and comradery. I'm also just remembering a tiny part before this where I am in the house of a Chinese man picking up something from marketplace and the gift is part of it. At one point he is on the phone and he says that I am ok but he wishes he was connecting with more of his own people. It made me feel sad because I felt like I was making an effort. I guess I was taking a long time because someone (mom?) came in to help me pack my things into a suitcase. I felt a little shell shocked and wasn't moving too quickly. So back in the school, they are semi-frantically getting ready for the school Christmas party. Someone is making a giant snowman and someone is decorating a huge tree. I go to the tree and I see the ornament that I gave and this scene took a while. I said to the woman decorating that I want to place it myself. And as I looked at all of the branches, I could never find the right branch to hang my ornament. I hung it in one place, then another place, and then it really took a while to look. Eventually I found a place that I was satisfied with and I hung it there but it wasn't quite right either. All along this time I was looking for the right opportunity to give my small gift. This felt kind of like desperate.. for connection and recognition. The next scene I am in a house that looks exactly like Dan Robert's house, the A-frame in the woods. I'm looking around and the first thing I think about is cigarettes, because Dan's mom smoked a lot. And then I got a very clear message in my head that said, "isn't it easy to let go of things that don't serve you?" This felt significant... I think I'll think about this one for a while. The next scene we are driving in a van with Luc, we are driving across a bridge and as we drive across the bridge two tall concrete exhaust towers collapse into the water below. I don't know what I am feeling here but I look at Luc and he takes some hardware to reinforce the car in some way. Kind of preparing for impact or something. There is another scene where I am driving but I'm not getting much acceleration. I am remembering two more scenes now... Earlier in the dream I am connecting with my friend Finn and her partner Aiden. We are connecting about acid and she is giving me an acid tincture as a gift. I take it and put it into a new prettier bottle. But I tell her that the last time I did acid tincture I got sick again. I told her I would still take it but I wondered who I would give it to.. who needed the acid tincture the most. I got the impression that Finn was kind of like a druggie... Like she liked altered states and was kind of like a manic pixie dream girl. The other scene I am remembering is about my old coworker Heather. We were in a meeting and she was explaining to the team all of the things she did and was handing over the digital documents and it made me feel like she was trying to project that I don't understand. That I don't know how to use the programming. This kind of thing sort of happened in real life, or that was my impression anyways. I felt exasperated, slightly exposed and annoyed. I felt confident in myself in the meeting.... But then not confident in private. I think that's it! It was very long and I have some ideas of what some things mean, but loads of information was shared here.