Ex Wife, Again

Date: 1/24/2020

I knew I was dreaming. I knew it. I knew as soon as you were acting like we were ok. It made me sad. I even told dream you that when I wake up, real you still won't want to be with me. You simply smiled and let me hold you. I cried into your hair as you rubbed my arm. You were wearing your long black hoodie with the short sleeves and black pants and my God, you are gorgeous. And I am a fool. We made out against the car and I guess in my dream it started to produce weird emoji stickers. I figured I would grab one to keep. You grabbed them all because we made them. I woke up and of course you were gone. At least I can see you in my dreams. At least there, I can still hold and love you. It is 3:30am and we are both awake in separate rooms and I miss the laugh I got to hear in my dream. I miss that smile. And I miss how it felt to have you near.