Another depressing crush dream.

Date: 4/24/2018

I say crush but it's not really crush.... It used to be love but I'm not sure anymore what's making me feel that way towards her... Anyway, I was playing the piano and this dream snapped back into my memories suddenly, it's from today's morning Dream: Basically everyone I know from my class and friends, we're all on some trip, we stopped and parked in some huge hotel and turns out it was a... Special hotel... It had a room for orgies and sex, like a big room built for orgies/bdsm stuff. So apparently that was the plan, we went there all specifically to just have sex, a free-for-all kinda thing, just for the "experience" no matter if u were gay or straight.. So the objective was : "find your partners", I didn't really question this absurdity in my dream so I'm going along with it, I go and look for that girl, I find her and take her hand, asking "do you want to come with me?" and she hesitantly replied... "I want 2 guys.." She knows that I love her, I say "but... I wanted you all to myself.." in a melancholic tone. -"we can have sex alone later..." she persists. I didn't believe her, it just sounded like she doesn't want me alone... From the corner of my eye I see my best friend dildoing a guy I don't know... He's not even gay idk why he was doing that.. My friend then turns around to me, and she says "here, let's do it us 3" I look at my friend, we're both in love with her, we openly talked about it before.. My friend is down for that, he had no problem but I still felt a heartache.. I try to tell her again... "You know I love you, watching and accepting another guy fuck you in front of my eyes would kill my heart... I absolutely can't..." She seemed to have disregarded my words, even worse, she seemed not to care, I felt like it's just irritating her more... Like I'm wasting her important time.. I asked her if she even feels anything towards me and she dodged answering... It annoyed me, she just wanted to get fucked and didn't care if it was me, like I cared if it was her... People are fucking and making out all around us, she just walked away with my friend... I couldn't bare to watch it, I just ran out the building and sat on the pavement, near a girl from my class who didn't want to participate in that orgy hotel... She didn't understand why I'm on the verge of crying, I was so frustrated and sad... It was so one sided, how she didn't even care for my dilemma and walked off from me.. I covered my eyes with my hands and just waited for the dream to be over.. Few seconds later I woke up and didn't remember even the slightest hint of this dream until now, 2 hours after waking up. It fucking hurt