First Good Dream

Date: 10/9/2016

I had my first good dream in almost a year last night,and I hope that I'll have one similar to it tonight--but it's highly doubtful that I will,with PTSD. I still have nightmares of my grandfather,how I never got to see him and his last moments--I still doubt his death like I did a year after it. I wish I could trust again,and I wish I could be nice to a man besides the deceased grandfather that ruined me by dying right after curing me by gaining my trust.