Lobotomy

Date: 12/15/2024

I dreamt that I got a lobotomy. It wasn’t totally clear why, but my uncle just recently lost his wife of 17 years and it’s been really hard seeing him in so much pain. I saw him for the first time in 17 years last night (I was at their wedding) and all I really want is for him tobe okay and I just know that I had the lobotomy done for him. It was sort of like I needed to deal with my emotions before I could actually be there for him. But last night I ended up crying so much at a family gathering that I had to leave. I also don’t know my dad’s family except through stories my dad told me growing up, so finally meeting everyone is really emotional too. I know my dad had a really rough relationship with them all his life, but he’s literally handling everything from the funeral to helping arrange the WHOLE family’s (it’s like 20 people) travel here. He’s been handling my uncle’s whole life for weeks now and I just want to support my family in some way, but I live across the country and can’t really do much except for call and check in on everyone. Anyways. This ended up as more of a diary entry so if you made it this far thanks for reading. ☺️ Good night 😴🌙