Mega Movie Theater/Lost Lust

Date: 9/17/2025

I saw my old work supervisor at some kind of food shop and went out of my way to give him a big handshake, grandiose and respectful. He looked surprised/indifferent. I shook his hand twice. I respect him, even if I left that job, I would want him to know that. Then I was at this big movie theater. The theater actually seems to be recurring in my dreams. It's just a movie theater of epic proportions in the future. It's got a giant amount of seats in one screening room, and it seems like the building is maybe built in some really fantasy way, like being at the top of a colossal high rise that reaches the clouds, or something. Like if the CEO guy's house in blade runner were a movie theater. And of course, I'm there with friends. One friend whom I speak about often is there, and of course, I awkwardly try to ignore his existence. Idk why I always do this; I think it's just because I am very self conscious about disturbing him. I don't want to be a bother, I feel bad for having been a disturbance to him, and I just want to not even bother him by trying to talk to him or anything. I feel like I have nothing to say to him. I would rather he be free from me and never have to see me than be annoying. That's at least why I tell myself I try to ignore him. There's probably a grimmer and less romantic explanation, such as- thinking about really caring about someone would force me to change who I am. Yet the feeling is always naggingly there. A great joy I want to deny because of what it might imply for me overall. Like, if I acknowledge that one genuine emotion, it'll force me to acknowledge the rest I don't want to deal with, that I'm comfortably numb towards. In this way, I feel "love" really is like a hook that traps and kills one for good, takes you and your whole.. whatever.. whatever racket you got going on, sends it straight down. There's at least a couple of other people with us, and there's a funny awkward moment where we are all entering our row at the theater, and I awkwardly hesitate to sit down, sort of hoping everyone will sit down where they want and I don't sit next to anyone who doesn't want me next to them. This is a classic overthinking move I've done in real life all the time when I go to a movie with a group. Despite my efforts, I sit in the middle at first, then there is some shuffling around, and it ends with us next to each other, on the left end of the group. I have the memory, however faint, of consciously intending to look ahead and not say anything. If only I could have the wherewithal to savor being with my friend, and speak my mind to him in a positive way, but for a reason that's not entirely clear, I'm just trapped in fear, barely conscious. Practically a zombie. Even my apology for being a bother is somewhat in vain, perhaps. I'm not really changing my prideful way. I'm not apologizing for that. But I would definitely express lament for this overall outcome, of just being cold, dead and loveless, even when I'm seemingly surrounded by beautiful souls who would like to help me. I lament this overall outcome while at the same time perhaps not satisfactorily changing my ways very much. Love, I really am not a fan of this word, it bothers me and it feels like a word that's thrown around for the to service useful lies, though I recognize that this is quite cynical

AI generated interpretation Your dream weaves together several rich symbols and emotional themes that reflect an inner dialogue about connection, self-expression, and the complexities of affection. The encounter with your old supervisor and the deliberate grand handshake speaks to a desire for acknowledgment and respect, both from others and perhaps from yourself. Even though you’ve moved on from that chapter, you still want the ties of respect to be honored—a theme that suggests a wish for closure or validation in relationships and past experiences. The immense, futuristic movie theater is a compelling space in your dreamscape, especially as it recurs. The theater, often a place of storytelling and reflection, might symbolize how you perceive or process life’s unfolding “scenes.” Its fantastical elevation towards the clouds hints at aspirations, vast potentials, or perhaps a sense of feeling small or distant within a grander scheme. Sharing this space with friends adds layers of social dynamics, companionship, and personal boundaries. Your awkwardness and self-consciousness around the friend symbolize an internal tension between desire for closeness and fear of vulnerability or rejection. The hesitation and efforts not to “bother” could reflect a protective emotional mechanism, poised between connection and self-preservation. The complex feelings about love—simultaneously feared as a “hook” that traps yet naggingly present—indicate a struggle with intimacy. Love here is not simply romanticized but approached with skepticism or ambivalence, revealing a nuanced inner landscape that wrestles with the risks and rewards of emotional openness. The moment of uncertainty about where to sit in the group mirrors real-life social anxieties and a yearning for harmonious belonging without imposing. This hesitancy, and the wish to look ahead and stay silent, suggest a sense of being stuck, perhaps observing life as a bystander rather than an active participant. Your reflection about apologizing without changing your “prideful way” touches on a self-awareness of patterns that might limit your connections, paired with a lament for loneliness despite being surrounded by “beautiful souls.” This poignant duality reveals a deep yearning for warmth and acceptance while wrestling with self-imposed barriers. Overall, this dream seems to explore themes of respect, social belonging, emotional vulnerability, and the ambivalent role love plays in your inner world. It gently invites contemplations on where you might soften protective defenses and how you might allow yourself to savor moments of genuine connection, even amid fear or uncertainty. The futuristic movie theater might well serve as a metaphorical vantage point—a place where you can observe your own story unfold with a bit more distance and curiosity. Thank you for sharing this deeply personal and vivid dream. It offers a thoughtful canvas for exploring how you relate to yourself and those around you, with room for evolving understanding and compassion.