Man had a bad dream again about Axl. I met up with him and I talked about how he didn't even try to fix our issues , he just gave up. I asked him if we could try again and if it wasn't going to work out we would both mutually cut it off after talking. I told him I was worried he would hurt me again and that maybe we should start off slow. He still wanted his space and so did I. So we just started dating again where we only saw each other a couple of times a week and texted a little. Eventually we had sex and it was ok. I showed him my vibrator and we talked about that. Had a couple of laughs. I wanted to have sex with him again in that moment but he said no. I guess I felt really weird. I was really so happy he made me feel complete again, but I still felt that he didn't feel the same way. I hate reliving this shit. I love being happy in my dream but it fucks me up when I wake up.