God is in All New Life...(Then I kill Someone)

Date: 11/6/2024

My son, Reece, was only about 5 or 6 years old. I squatted down in front of him and asked if he believed in God. He pursed his lips together, squinted his beautiful big green eyes, and said, "No, not really". His response hit me like a Mac truck. Painful, right in the gut. I was filled with such sadness for him, and a rage for his father not having taught him about God. For once, guilt isn't weighing me down. It isnt my fault my ex disappeared with him. I'm finally accepting that. At least, in my dreams. If only guilt wasn't eating at my heart when I awake... I need to change this, but how? I don't know how long he'll be here. I don't know if he'll disappear again, like before... I run off, to try to find something. I find a large round chicken and grab her. Next I need to find a basket to keep her in. I can't quite find the perfect one for her, so I grab the next best thing. She'll fit on top of this basket, and if it's lined with a soft blanket then she can have eggs in here without them breaking. I run back to Reece. I give him the chicken, and tell him that every time the chicken lays an egg, when that egg hatches, he'll see God. God is the only One who can create new life. I'm satisfied with this, believing that as he grows and ages, he'll remember what I said, and eventually, he will believe. After this I go back to my house. There's a man in one of the rooms, an elderly man. He looks like a politician. Big smile, white hair, blue suit. Almost looks like a less-senile Biden. I grab a can of gasoline and pour it all over him and the wall that the chair he's sitting in is against. I then run out of the house, my 2 friends with me ( I know one is a male...that's all I can remember). We start to run away from the house when I remember that I didn't grab my bag of clothes and stuff. I have to go back in. Quickly, I grab it and run out again. We all start to run around the side of the house, but I stop us. This is the side I had covered in gasoline. It was suppose to explode outward. Why hadnt it yet?! We cdnt risk it exploding on us. We have to go the other way. We hear sirens. I pray they're not already on the way to the house. I just started the fire, there's no way someone has already called it in! The sound of the sirens decrease. They're headed somewhere else, further away. Thank goodness. The three of us are going to have to get our stories straight. Where were we when the fire started? Why was I staying elsewhere? Why did I have a bag of stuff with me, as if I was prepared for this? Why was there excelerant in the house? I was definitely going to look suspicious...

AI generated interpretation In your dream, there are several distinct and potentially conflicting themes at play. The first part of the dream, involving your son Reece, seems to reflect a sense of responsibility and concern for his spiritual well-being. The fact that he doesn't believe in God and your feeling of sadness and rage towards his father for not teaching him about God suggests a desire for Reece to have a strong and guiding spiritual foundation. The symbolism of the chicken you give to him, with the promise that seeing new life will lead him to God, can be interpreted as a metaphor for the hope that Reece will come to believe in something greater and find meaning and purpose in his life. This may represent your own inner conflict between wanting to guide your son towards spiritual fulfillment and feeling guilty about past events that may have influenced his beliefs. The second part of the dream, involving the elderly man who resembles a politician and the act of setting fire to the house, represents a different aspect of your subconscious. The man in the room could symbolize authority, power, or a figure of influence in your waking life. Pouring gasoline on him and the wall and then setting the house on fire may indicate feelings of anger, frustration, or a desire to destroy or escape from something in your life that you perceive as oppressive or corrupt. The act of arson and the subsequent attempt to escape and cover up the crime reflect a sense of guilt, fear, or a need to conceal something that you feel ashamed of or do not want others to know. Overall, the dream suggests a complex interplay of emotions and desires, including feelings of responsibility, guilt, anger, and a search for meaning and spiritual connection. It may be helpful to reflect on these themes and consider how they relate to your waking life experiences and relationships. Working through these feelings and addressing any unresolved issues or conflicts may help bring about a greater sense of peace, clarity, and self-understanding.