Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 3/13/2021
By rubslug
. I was taking a class w Vincent her and I guess he was teaching us tai chi? But it was a series of mainly minuscule hand postures almost like hand yoga w some bigger body movements. I felt incredible as I did it and stayed later in the class to read the handbook he gave us. Finally I left and noticed one other girl had too, she left at the same time as me and we ended up walking together . I stopped off at a classroom where I had a bunch of mg stuff, the younger girl was looking at it and said “you’re so cool.” I was like noooooo i am not. (This is funny to me.) we went to lunch together and I found my table . lil was there looking how she looks today, beautiful . And a bunch of other cool girls . I was casual and just sat down w the girl and them and Introduced her, obviously we were all v friendly . I got in the lunch line, put my chicken patty in a bowl and some corn on top and squeezed out of the line w/0 paying anxiously — i never had my ID when I needed it. Just realized — the cafeteria was exactly my middle school cafeteria . I was anxious, anxious. When I came back , my friends were figuring out how to get beers — yes my HS sold beers in a lil cooler, and I guess drinking age was 18. It was spring of our senior year. While I was in line most of them had left to go up to their lockers to get beer money which was a far walk up lotsa stairs — literally laid out like in middle school. I wanted beer too and confusedly took the wrong staircase which led me to what in IRL would have been the “high school.” But there were small mean children there instead. I recalled my locker was actually close by the cafeteria and backtracked. That kid from home room was there, John. Although I was cooler and prettier in this version of life, he was bullying me p genuinely, saying I was pathetic and what various ppl thought of me. I was shaking inside but giving even keeled, disinterested comebacks while trying different lockers w diff combinations; I couldn’t remember the right one or which was even mine. Ofc the younger girl came up to me while this was happening and heard what John said. He left and I said to her, “he’s such trash, so pathetic you know. Like I’m going to do anything but ignore him.” But I was shaken up, more so by not being able to access my locker. I gave up and went inside, tried to coax Lil into getting me a beer, but then realized afterward I had my Id and drivers lisxnece which was all I needed. Classic thing that always happens in my own life, v familiar feeling. I was noticing how the young girl was already so much better friends with everyone else than I felt I was ; I was p much away from them the whole lunch period. Pangs of jealousy and exhaustion. I kinda just stared down at my food . The dream ended zooming in on two of my friends — i think it was a combo of Kori Hiliwinski from middle school and Kayla from HS w the colored hair. Kayla was talking ab her boyfriend, (Dylan from HS) Or ex, saying he thought he really did like her because he did this... he thought he really did.. she was teary eyed . It was clear he didn’t care about her.