Made Me Realize My Insecurities

Date: 2/25/2021

I went to bed last night early and let myself feel gravity’s weight again as I fell asleep. Yet again I had dreams (I really think there’s something to the gravity thing). Anyway I dreamt I was in my dining room with my mom and sister. There was more to the conversation but all I remember is I yelled at my mom and said, “every time I talk to you it seems like you want me to think I’m a fuck up and heart broken” and she said that is how she felt and than my sister said, “not the fuck up part but yeah maybe heart broken”. When I woke up it took a few mins but eventually it really hit me. My ex really fucked me up and it annoys tf out of me cause I’m over her and Ik I am cause it’s been so long. It’s not really the love I had for her that stuck with me it’s the damage that came from the break up I literally can’t trust anyone anymore it sucks. Maybe I’m at a turning point though cause I’m genuinely sick of being held back by all this baggage.