Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 7/6/2020
By amandalyle
I had lost one of my service users (Jeremy) in Asda. He was with me one minute, gone the next. I was rushing around, in a panic, trying to locate his whereabouts. As I was scanning the aisles, I bumped into an old childhood friend, Roxanne. She told me kylie was meeting her and asked if my mum would like for us all to pay her a visit. “Erm ... probably not.” I said. Roxanne looked disappointed. She then made her excuses and left. Next scene; I was with this group of people I didn’t recognise. They had this diving kit on. The full shebang! They wanted me to go into the water with them, but I burst into tears and told them my dad had died (he actually died 10 years ago) and that I had to go back to the hospital in which he died (he actually died in a hospice). I said my goodbyes and then drove to the hospital. A tall, imposing modern building with a maze of white walls. Everywhere I looked, there were people suffering and on their death beds. The place cried of death. Despite the distractions, I ploughed on, trying to locate the exact whereabouts of where my dad had passed over. I eventually arrived at the bed in which it happened. It was positioned right next to these giant French windows. Light poured through them, casting an illuminating white spotlight upon the empty bed. I followed the bright white light and passed through the doors. As the outside air hit me, I felt an enormous sense of relief. Next scene; (This one was weird and hard to explain) In one layer of the dream I was having sex with my husband. In another layer of the dream, I was having sex with someone else (I didn’t recognise who it was?) I don’t even know how it was possible; but I guess the perspective flickered from one to the other, in the same bed, at the exact same time. I remember feeling guilty about it. That it wasn’t right.
AI generated interpretation Thank you for sharing your dream. The dream you have described suggests that there may be a couple of underlying psychological themes that are currently affecting you in your waking life. The first theme is related to your sense of loss and panic. Losing your service user Jeremy in the dream may represent feelings of anxiety or fear of losing control or losing someone/something important in your waking life. This may be related to your work or personal life, and you may feel an overwhelming sense of responsibility to keep things together. The intense search for Jeremy in the dream also points to feelings of urgency and the need for urgency in dealing with these stressful situations. The encounter with your childhood friend Roxanne may also represent a desire to reconnect with your past or revisit old memories. However, your reluctance to visit Kylie suggests that you may not be ready to reconnect with certain parts of your past or people who represent unfinished business. The second theme that appears in your dream is related to grief and moving on. The memory of your dad and his death may still be very present in your mind, even though it has been 10 years. The hospital setting and the images of people suffering and dying may reflect unresolved grief, leading to a preoccupation with death and dying. Finding your father's empty bed next to the French windows illuminated by light suggests that you may have come to a turning point where you are ready to let go of your grief and move on to a place of healing and closure. The final layer of your dream, where you experience conflicting feelings of guilt and pleasure during sex, may reflect complex emotions related to commitment and desire in your waking life. It is possible that you may be experiencing some conflicts or confusion in your intimate relationships, and you may be struggling to balance your desire and the commitment you have made to your partner. Overall, your dream suggests that there may be unresolved emotional issues that are affecting your waking life, and it may be helpful for you to explore these more deeply with a therapist or trusted confidante.