Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 4/11/2019
By blucanary
~I was w/ an old friend Rae. She and I had driven around for quite a while and decided to stop for a bit. We arrived at a big patch of greenery. Like an empty park or something. It was very large. She parked the car and we got out and walked around. We came to a big fenced off area. The fence wasnt locked though, so we went inside. Again, there was a lot of empty greenery, but there was also a large elementary school building. It didnt really look like it was in use anymore, so we opened one of the doors and walked down the long off-white corridor. All the doors to the classrooms were open. They all looked deserted & unkempt. One classroom had a large bed in it, with a dark gray blanket covering it. We walked in, shutting the door behind us. I lied down on the bed (on my back, my knees bent over the edge, my arms beneath my head as I stared up at the ceiling, occasionally looking around). Rae sat on the bed next to me and we just talked. There was a large black chalkboard that had remnants of writing left upon it (it looked like it had something to do w science). As we were talking we suddenly heard footsteps. People were walking out in the hallway. It sounded like a small group of people. Then suddenly the classroom door swung open. There stood about four or five men. The one in front was wearing a tan jumper. Maybe he was a janitor? Idk why there was a group with him if he was a janitor though. ~ They stopped in their tracks and just stared at us. I spoke first, breaking the awkward silence of glancing back and forth. "I'm sorry, we were so tired. We just needed to rest for a little bit. Do you want us to leave?" The main man (the one in the jumper, with his hand on the doorknob) simply says, "No, that's fine". I ask "Are you sure?" as they're walking around and they yell back yes, we're fine. So we remain. ~ I thought to myself "We shd hv left the door open! Maybe they wdnt hv even noticed us if we had. They only opened the door bc it was literally the only one closed! Then I imagined sitting on the side of the bed, between the bed and the wall, hidden from sight. I imagined myself sitting there slitting my wrists. There was blood everywhere. In this image though, I hadnt left the door opened like I said I ought to do. So the men opened the door. Not seeing anything they decide to look around. They find me. I look a fright. Im sitting, legs beneath me, my long hair black and scraggly covering my face as I hang my head. Bright red blood is smeared all around me on the off-white tile floors and off-white wall. I imagined them lifting up my face. What wd they see? A broken girl desperately in need of love and acceptance, of understanding and help, or wd they see a young woman possessed by a demon, evil and ugly, with glowing eyes amd fangs that hung out of my mouth as I laughed maniacally relishing the fear in theor faces as they run away. ~The image ended when someone else enters the classroom. A middle aged woman. I'd say abt 46-ish. Kinda plump with blond hair bobbed almost to her chin. She wore a black and white dress, very appropriate for an elementary school teacher. She said she just needed to grab the chalkboard erasers bc hers were missing. So this school was still in use? We began talking to her. Asking minute questions abt the supplies in the classroom, stuff like that. Rae and I are both standing now, and this woman is inching her 1-inch black heeled shoes closer and closer to Rae. She's finally close enough that they embrace and begin kissing. I say, "Okay then, I'll just meet you outside whenever you're ready" and walked out. ~I called a friend and told him what had just happened bc it was just so strange. He seemed shocked. First off, Rae is straight. But second, he said, "I cant believe anyone wd be attracted to Rae over you!" I say "That's not nice! Everyone has their own preferences. Also, Rae is kinda manly and plain looking, as well as over weight.. (and I personally think the bitchiness in her personality shows through into her appearance). The teacher looked more feminine so I suppose it makes sense that she wanted a girl who looked more like a guy. Realizing the stupidity of our conversation, I end up and hang up. ~ I'm looking around but I cant find her car anywhere. Im positive I walked out the correct way. Outside of the fenced in area is now filled w/ people, families. A group of young black men are playing football. They throw the ball to another player so close to me I had to run out of the way to not get tackled. ~I go back into the fenced in area and decide to try to retrace my steps. Im walking around, listening to music when I realize I probably dont hv much charge left. I check the charge. The phn looks more like an old pager, but I know it's a phn. I had a decent amount of charge left but knew I shd save it. Listening to music wd run it dwn quick. I make my way to a parking lot. Rae and I had not seen a parking lot before. We parked in a grassy area with just a few open spaces to park. ~ The lot was fairly full. I saw one car door (passenger side of a small tan car) partially open. Next to the front tire was a dollar bill. I stooped dwn to pick it up. Then I saw another dollar bill. And then a 5. And a few 10's. And a 20. Just as I noticed a tan wallet hanging out of the door itself, upside dwn, a hear a man open the driver side door and ask why Im crouching at his car. I sit up and say, "I believe these probably belong to you. I found them on the ground next to your car. There's atleast $40 there!" His age was difficult to determine, bc his face looked kinda young (and he was short and slim, a small guy) but his brown hair was rapidly balding! The whole top section was practically gone, where just the sides remain. He was wearing tan trousers, a white botton up shirt and brown tie. ~He offered me a ride home, I had assumed as a 'reward' for my honesty. It had been a while now since I had left Rae and hadnt been able to find her. I didnt hv any clue where I was or how to get home or anything so I accepted the ride. I get in, buckle up and we drive off. Only abt 10 minutes later we pull into the driveway of a small yellow and white house. He says he just needs to grab something. For some stupid reason I get out of the car and walk with him. As we reach the front door, he grabs a baseball cap out of his back pocket and puts it on, covering his face quite well. This is when I panic. No one else wd be able to see his face now, but with me standing right next to him, I cd. And I cd see that his whole demeanor has changed, the look on his face, his eyes, his now 'smirk', everything. ~This is when I realized I had willingly accepted a ride with a serial killer. I knew he was going to torture me, rape me, and eventually kill me. I go to run but he grabs me. Im barefoot for some reason, and he bends dwn trying to bite my big toe. He gets himself in a really weird position. His legs are wrapped around my upper body, his butt is in my face, and he's still trying to bite my big toe. Im kicking my foot to stop him from biting me (what he actually wants to do is bite my toenail off, and that shite wd hurt like heck! No way am I just gonna stand there and take it!!)! Then I start banging his head against the step in front of the door (it's not a step as in a stair, it's just where you step up to enter the house). I keep banging his head but he doesnt even care. He begins laughing and I ask "Oh my God! You like this, dont you?! You like pain!" Still laughing and in that weird position he looks up at me, blood between his teeth most likely from biting his tongue when I kept bashing his head against that step) he says, "I like YOU! Hahahaha You wanna know why?! Bc you're gonna end up feeling sorry for me! You wont even hate me for what I'm going to do to you bc you'll feel too sorry for me! Hahahahahahaha!!!". ~ I start running down the street now, him still on me. A couple men are jogging. Im crying and yelling at these men for help. "Help me! Please! He's trying to abduct me! He's gonna...you know...'do it' w/ me"! I said that last part in a hushed tone as if I wasnt a grown @$$ adult and sex was unspeakable. I realized how stupid it sounded as soon as I said it, but that didnt matter right now. ~ I finally managed to push the guy off me, but as soon as I did, he pounced like a cat right back onto me. We kept doing this. The joggers watching, not quite sure what to do, me fighting and throwing the guy off of me and then him pouncing back on me, just like a large cat. At one point I see a big orange and white moving van headed in our direction. I get the guy off me and throw him in front of the van. The chunky white man driving sees us in time though and swerves, unfortunately missing the man. We continue down the street like this, and this is how I wake up; Running down a street barefoot and in tears trying to escape a torturous, raping serial killer who wont stop pouncing, while others look on and offer no help whatsoever.
AI generated interpretation This dream contains elements of fear, vulnerability, and a sense of being pursued by a dangerous force. The initial setting of the dream, with the abandoned school building and the encounter with the group of men, may symbolize feelings of isolation and uncertainty. Your interactions with Rae and the teacher could represent different aspects of yourself or relationships in your life. The shift in dynamics with Rae kissing the teacher could reflect feelings of confusion or betrayal in a close relationship. The appearance of the serial killer in the dream may symbolize a fear of being harmed or overpowered by someone in your waking life. The imagery of being pursued and attacked by the killer may reflect feelings of powerlessness or being threatened by external forces. The focus on the toe-biting and the struggle to defend yourself could represent a sense of trying to protect yourself from harm, both physically and emotionally. The dream may also touch on themes of deception and manipulation, as seen in the serial killer's changing demeanor and his attempt to elicit sympathy from you. This could suggest a fear of being taken advantage of or misled by others. The lack of help from the bystanders in the dream could reflect feelings of being abandoned or unsupported in a time of need. Overall, this dream may indicate underlying fears or anxieties about safety, trust, and personal boundaries. It could be helpful to explore any current stressors or conflicts in your life that may be contributing to these feelings of vulnerability and fear. Processing these emotions and seeking support from trusted individuals can help address and alleviate these concerns.